I've got lots more background stories and bipolar information to put out there, but today I wanted to talk a little about how we're doing now. Because it's pretty good news.
Taz is doing well, at this moment. As in today. Well, sometimes we go day by day here. Actually, he was doing good for the last couple weeks, then this weekend fell apart. I was worried his med doses weren't high enough. Or suddenly stopped working (because that happens a lot).
But then he had a good week. And an especially good day.
I can tell when he's stable because he's much more directable. He apologizes if he hurts someone, does something wrong, or gets too rough. He is able to handle a consequence without raging or laughing, one of the two reactions that mean he's unstable.
He's even more verbal when he's stable.
I'm also playing around with a schedule that works for him. Taz has sensory needs as well. So I'm trying to juggle giving him what he needs, parenting Chica (who is a whole different kid), and taking care of myself. I haven't quite figured out how to balance it yet.
But today we did good. It helps that the weather is better. Spending a long time outside is good for everyone.
I think the lack of structure on the weekends is really screwing us up. I don't really think of Taz as a super structured kid, but maybe we need just a little more.
There's always something to work on. Always something to improve.
So we keep trudging along, trying to find our way to balance and harmony. I have high hopes for the spring and summer. I hope I'm not disappointed.