Taz is home today.
He slept like crap. He kept waking up wanting to go in our bed. Or afraid he was going to pee in his bed, even though he wears a pull-up. Dh wonders what nighttime was like at the hospital.
Taz is pretty much back to where we left off. He's calmer but mostly because he's tired. The meds are making him really drowsy and groggy. Dr. F assures me that will wear off within the week.
He's not manic like he was when we brought him to the hospital more than a week ago. But he's irritable.
And still aggressive.
Perhaps not as often. But when things don't go his way, he is still throwing chairs at me, scratching and biting.
I don't know what I was hoping for. A miracle? A cure? I know there isn't one but I've seen Taz do really well on certain medications. Until they wear off.
Now I'm wondering if there is no drug that can halt his aggression. And since he can't predict consequences, where does that leave us?
Maybe we need to be really creative about management strategies. We need to make him a calm down room where he can't destroy anything. Maybe we need more than one person in the house all the time.
I don't know.
If the tiredness doesn't stop within a few days we'll have to take him off the Intuniv. Maybe that will help with the crankiness. I don't know what to think anymore. I don't know what to expect. I don't know who to believe. I don't know what to do.
Like our outpatient psychiatrist said over the phone yesterday.
"Taz is a kid with a lot of problems."